| I started this week at 145.2 lbs on Monday. Today, I weighed in at 143.5 lbs--a loss of 1.7 pounds this week!!
I still don't think I'm going to make it to 135 by the time Fiance comes home. But I definitely think it's doable to get down to the 130s!!
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| Hey everyone! I know I have been suspiciously absent for awhile, and I'm super sorry about that. The last few weeks have been really difficult, physically and emotionally, mostly due to the fact that there was just too much on my plate. BUT, I've turned things around, I think, and we're back on track.
So let's talk positives!
- I broke my 146-lb weight plateau, and as of yesterday I am down to 145.2! My goal is to be in the 130s (even if it's the high 130s) by the time Fiance comes home. And speaking of Fiance...
- FIANCE COMES HOME IN LESS THAN A MONTH!! 30 days to be exact. I am so excited to see him. I had planned to be super slim and slender by the time he got back, but really? I know he loves my body no matter what, and I'm going to be too busy smothering him with cuddles for him to even look at it. (Well, until the not-cuddling starts. :P)
- I have finished 2/6 grad school application essays, and dropped off all of my letter of reference materials to the lovely folks who are writing my recommendations.
- It's almost Thanksgiving break! For Tofurkey Day, I'll be going back to my hometown, playing with the high school marching band in our rivalry game against The Evil Empire (as we fondly call them). Marching band alums always play the field show and attend the special breakfast with the rest of the band Thanksgiving Day morning. Also, my two adorable baby cousins (we shall call them Berry and Gobe, as those are their nicknames) will be visiting with their parents. (Down side of that is that I'm being evicted from my bedroom, but it's okay. Sister and I will have a sibling-bonding sleepover.)
- I got an 'A' on a paper that I wrote in (literally) 2 hours!
All in all, things are going fairly well right now.
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| So.
After four days of eating perfectly and going to the gym for an hour every day, I have lost ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I am exactly the same as Monday's weigh-in, 146.2 pounds. And I am royally pissed.
I'm calling my doctor today. This long a plateau is just not okay, considering how much I am doing to try and lose weight. I cried the entire half hour drive to work this morning because I was so upset.
Being positive is just not working anymore.
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| Tumblr 30 day weight loss challenge, day 24: How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia?
I think anyone who identifies with either needs to get themselves to a mental health professional, STAT. Anorexia and Bulimia are not diet plans, they are not weight-loss strategies, they are mental illnesses. They have serious emotional, psychological, and physical side effects; they are not fucking Tumblr trends.
I would personally like to go up to every single person who is "pro-ana" or "pro-mia" and do this:
Ugh. SO MUCH ANGER.
DISCLAIMER: I am obviously not talking about slapping people who are actually suffering from anorexia or bulimia. I'm talking about the people who say "yay I am going to starve myself for three days to lose some weight haha #pro-ana" or "omg i ate a cookie, brb taking seven laxatives and eight diet pills and sticking my finger down my throat #pro-mia" and people who post pictures of anorexia victims as "thinspiration" and people who are not aware that they are spreading the message that these techniques are in any way okay. They are all assholes and deserve a serious reality check. In the form of a slap to the face.
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| Tumblr 30 Day Weight Loss Challenge, day 23: Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
OOOOH what a fun question! I'm going to have go a little sociologist on it.
I've been studying media influence for several years now, including mass media theory, mass culture theory, and theories of mass media influence. A common theme I've noticed throughout a lot of my reading is that on its own, the media do not have power. It is the fact that individuals accept the hegemonic values broadcasted via news, print, and web that perpetuates and legitimizes those values. The mass belief that skinny=beautiful and skinny=health did not evolve overnight because Twiggy got herself on Vogue. The idolization of a thin female body developed as more and more individuals bought into it and spread their influence to their friends and families. These people are called "opinion leaders". For example, I have a friend who knows WAY more about fashion trends than I do. If she tells me that I look fashionable, I'll believe her, because I know she is more of an expert source than I am.
The same is true for media. We are susceptible to media influences because they come to us from "experts", people with the authority that comes with titles and education.
So in short: no, the media do not play a direct role in my wanting to lose weight. Society's internalization of media-broadcasted values, and the subsequent reactions of other people to my weight, has played a direct role in my wanting to lose weight.
And now that I have revealed myself to be an EPIC EPIC NERD, I will leave this here:
Because since you now know I'm a total theory queen, I can proudly say that RYAN GOSLING AND FEMINISM IS POSSIBLY THE BEST COMBINATION EVER. Were I unwed I would do terrible terrible things to that man's body. And by terrible terrible, I mean wonderful wonderful.
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| Tumblr 30 day weight loss challenge, day 22: What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
I think my lowest weight ever was in my freshman year of high school, when I was in the mid 120s. I was training for my black belt at the time, so I had to be in really good shape. Then I got into a really bad, abusive relationship that lasted about six months. After that, I wanted to do anything I could to make myself as unattractive as possible. There are very few pictures from that time, but I cut my hair and gained about thirty pounds.
It sucked a whole lot. :(
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| Tumblr 30 day weight loss challenge, day 21: What are your clothing sizes?
Pants/Jeans: size 6-8
Shirts/Dresses: size S-M (usually a small, but boob-related things make it difficult sometimes, so there's the occasional medium)y
Bra: 34DDD (yeah, that could totally change ANY TIME NOW and I would be totally cool with it. bras are freaking EXPENSIVE at that size.)
Speaking of clothing, I find myself very short on warm winter things. I know I said I wasn't going to buy myself any new clothes until I reached my 120-lb goal, but I think necessity might dictate that I do it sooner. Maybe I will head to the thrift store this week and just pick up a few sweaters? If they end up too big by the time I'm at my UGW, I can always give them back! That's the best thing about those stores! :)
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| Today is my first day of doing Monday weigh-ins, and we are already off to a great start! I weighed in this morning at 146.2 pounds, which is down from 147.5 on Friday. That means I lost 1.3 pounds over the weekend, which is really surprising, considering:
- On Saturday, I went on a baking spree
- On Sunday, I went to a free pizza and beer-tasting event and then went on another baking spree (it's bake sale season).
Still, throughout the whole weekend, I was really conscious of the fact that I'd be weighing in today, and I think that kept me from doing my usual "IT'S THE WEEKEND BABY I'LL EAT WHATEVER I WANT" thing, which is bad.
So now that I'm back in the 146-range, I think that my goal for Friday's weigh-in will be 145. That's a loss of .8 pounds in four days (since I weigh in on Friday morning). Come on, Self! We can do it!
(I got a new weight ticker. Cuter than the old one, right?!)
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| SORRY SORRY SORRY.
Ahem.
Tumblr 30 day weight loss challenge, day 18: What food is your weakness?
Pasta, mac and cheese, and pretty much any kid of baked good.
Om nom nom.
( days 19 and 20 under the cut )
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| Tumblr 30 day weight loss challenge, day 17: Do you have an eating disorder?
No.
Well, not really.
I have never been diagnosed anorexic or bulimic, and I've never been obese or had a binge eating disorder. What I do have, however, is a very disordered way of looking at food and eating, and a very strong emotional reaction if I feel like I've eaten too much (even if I haven't). When I was in therapy a few years ago, my counselor mentioned EDNOS, or "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Basically it's a DSM-IV way of saying "yeah, you're fucked up, but you don't fit into any of the categories!"
The thing with EDNOS is that it's not really a diagnosis or a condition, really. What it is is an awareness of a problem. Sometimes you just need to step back and look at your habits and say to yourself, "is what I'm doing healthy? am I treating my self and my body in a healthy way? am I having healthy reactions to what I'm eating and doing?" If the answer is no, then it's time to make a change. Nothing will ever get better if you refuse to acknowledge a problem.
THAT WAS DEPRESSING. SORRY. HERE IS A PUPPY PLAYING WITH WINNIE THE POOH TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.
 
 
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